Today class we will discuss love and it always without exception comes in a two-pack form. Now scratch that, Jimmy Hendrix told us love can come in a form of a guitar, so perhaps the loneliest number is not one, after all. But that means we've now applied the filter of sex upon life as for that greatest experience one needs another one and an equal sign and a plus and so we have two. About this aspect is what this little beat of heart is all about. And I will use the song Do For Love by 2Pac as an example. For two reasons. First, I never met 2Pac and while being a musician that is important. I do not run in the circles of music business nor am I privy to have even had a single date with a woman by my fortieth (40) birthday as it seems I was born disabled (low vision) so I have a different view on life from the rest of you. And second, I have been in a relationship with a woman who seems to have treated me identically to what 2Pac describes. Now this second fact might conflict with me never having dated. That woman I was with because she said she was a victim of abuse and I dated her exclusively to give her time with someone, namely myself, whom could never harm her ever, and I never did harm her, and from the sounds of it she has moved on and has never been harmed since. So some say that is dating, but as it was not a woman I chose but one whom I was rescuing, therefore my free will was not a component in our relationship - it was a love forced upon me by the reported cruelty of another man. Had she not cried all over the web of being beaten I never would have even shown any interest in her. Dating to me, is when those involved willingly are participating, when their minds aren't altered nor are they pushed nor influenced nor physically coerced. Even though I am forty I have never had such a relationship. I have only dated women who cried of being victims of abuse and never has a woman shown interest in me and offered her phone number nor hung out with me and took interest in my hobbies, let alone played ball with me or a game of chess. So while I am obviously no expert on women, I also am, as I know what a woman does not want, ever, in her whole life. And that my dear fellows, is more than any of you will ever grasp. For I am a high school drop out who mastered what you all can only dream of and had the money and means to be what none of you can ever hope to achieve. And yet no woman ever desired me. Ever. But let's move onto 2Pac's Do For Love. Because unliek you all, I'm not willing to even lift a finger for love. Some of you may think that this is the reason no woman dated me. One must work hard for love. But this is now getting into my song analysis.
Love is simple. It is the simplest of things in life. If you are normal, love costs nothing, it means nothing, it offers nothing nor takes nothing. It is nothing and has nothing to do with everything. It is not expensive, nor is it free. Love is not war and it is not a sign of peace. Love is not a victory and it is not a loss or a defeat or an orgasm. It is not a sign from God nor the work of the devil's greatest ally, The Santa Clause. Love is not a Canadian invention nor a thing to do with Valentine's. 2Pac explains love before a single word is heard in the track with the base line. Listen to it a few minutes and realize it is the exact same, uncomplicated, repeated, looped, set of notes, repeating throughout the whole song. It is the simmplest thing imaginable. 2Pac represents this with a nice sinusoid curve, repeating four or five notes over and over never changing, never altering, never even once adding a wobble, a fade, nothing. The baseline demonstrated just what the base of the pyramids in Egypt demonstrates. If it is solid, easy to recognize and always the same, then it is a foundation we can build anything atop of. Anything. Do For Love's baseline is thusly simple. Some artist with bizzarre hair can be called Skrillex and can make his music out of the drilling machines that U2 used in Numb sound like an orchestra and it's fine and fun, and it is also love. But 2PAc's baseline is what love is to me. It is simple, and beautiful. This baseline you can listen on its own without anything else and it will still be fun to tap your foot to. See, 2Pac knows what love is, if he did not the baseline wouldn't be what it is. And that's why the song is not about him but about you ladies, and her specifically, the one I know nothing about, and am glad never to have met - and yet the woman from California that flew over and over to Toronto to make love to me in my bed treated me with just the same love as is described in 2Pac's song. And I ended up homeless after her. It is not enough that I was born blind, but you women had to ruin what all I was able to build, and unlike 2Pac I am not a million dollar artist, nor will I bother to release any of my music ever. In effect, you ladies murdered me with love and the sad part is, you are all proud of that now. The psychoticness in the female gender has become so severe that 2PAc's Do For Love is probably the last song to crrectly describe the condition that was tame back then and is murderous in women these days as the cult of feminism is raging on.
As I look at my cable TV at the movie V is for Vendetta the line of the man in a mask talking to a woman is "There are 872 songs in here". The motto for the blog of the woman I dated was "vindication for the right of woman". As you can see, these are all the same things, interconnected, and not coincidental. Someone out there is waging war and using love as a tool, or rather the xerox of love. And while it is a clear sign of mental illness on the part of those harming others by pretending to love it is irrelevant for people these days become violent if you suggest they have a mental problem mostly in part to abusive authorities whom use the mental health system to cause harm to terrorists and criminals as means of elimminating them from society. So people who simply have a broken heart have nobody to turn to. Even here in Canada the Toronto Police these days are using food laced with drugs as well as illegal lock ups without any due process as well as technology of all sorts using implantable chips and so forth. Many think a GPS button on their phone disables tracking - not true. It disables the user's ability to see the tracking in some cases. After all, it is in all our safety's interests that those accused of rape whom served time are still locatable even if their GPS is off, right Mr. Homeland Security Act? Right? Road to hell is paved with what folks? This is also what 2Pac's track is all about.
For example, the opening three lines say that the woman was difficult to even talk with let alone love, and that he knew her heart was not right and he had so many questions about who did it to her or what her mental problems were. As the song is written in retrospect the word perhaps is added to the fourth line implying that he thought back then they were a perfect match but now having learned all those lessons as mentioned in the first three lines he sees his own beautiful love-filled attitude as perhaps the culprit. 2Pac thought they had little problems but turns out they were loud ones and he had to go away and walk it off - immplying she was pushign his buttons and perhaps willfully and with purpose, even dare I say with an agenda. This is followed by 2Pac's belief that if she just trusted him by taking his hand and walking with him on the journey of life - in other words, 2Pac still like all those faced with these agents of hate thinks that the woman has love on her mind just like he does it is just that she is scared and worried and unsure as opposed to using these ideals as means of causing pain, suffering and even death the way terrorists are doing to many these days. America now has a 60% divorce rate along with a 55% obesity rate. Looking back is 20/20 for us all and 2Pac is trying to blame himself and still loves the woman so much that he is denying she was an agent of terror even back then by saying maybe he just wasn't ready to be a man and was escaping the fear of having children and being tied down. This is his nice side as we all men are lovers and not fighters. He is searching his soul trying to defend her ill-deeds even from the pad and pen with his movement of love expressed clearly in this second part of the defense of love. First was the word perhaps at the end of the first few lines. Even when he says it in the song the word perhaps is said shakily with different affect and intonation. And yet throughout all of it, the baseline, the same four or five notes, are always going strong, always pulsing, beating, pushing the man along, the world is still rotating, and the river always flows back to the mountain top. This is why he says he was searching for commitment in other arms which is doubtufl as he also wrote that he was angry that she was cheating on him. 2Pac was probably feeling sorry for even talking happily and freely like we all should be with each other to another female here and there. 2Pac maybe struck up a friendship and poured his heart to a cashier or a waitress or some female friend and felt guilty about it. He most likely did not cheat on the woman in the song because of the line stating that he was worried she cheated on him. Why would he care if she cheated on him if he was cheating? Feminism of today says that men objectify women but I do not think 2Pac was like this as I have never met a single man whom is, but I did meet many women who lie about everything imaginable including that obese women are sexy and that curves are beuatiful. Never having worked in the OR as a surgeon saving their clogged arteries and malfunctioning hearts I bet has a lot to do with this malformed opinion though. Personally I would take Schwarzenegger's Make America Lift Again approach to curves are beautiful - to this day I am most turned on by women with biceps and believe me, that is rarer than women who blame men for their own anorexia. What else does a mentally ill person do but blame others when it is their own problem they are not facing up to? For example, even though I am nearly blind I am the one cleaning urine and feces of dogs and even people in my building's stairwell because the rest of the tenants simply can not be bothered, including the obese women whom serve as the building's oncall staff. While this may seem off-topic, it is not. The same love for life that I recognize in the baseline of Do For Love is also what guides most of the things in my life. Health, respect, you know? Simple things.
2Pac continues reassuring as by stating what his argument's viewpoint was in everything he did in that relationship - sheltering her from harm. The woman made herself appear a victim of some sorts, a vulnerable little thing, beautiful no doubt, sexy, and the bedroom description I will never hear about because that is part of 2Pac's love. He doesn't sing about how wild she was, or not, he doesn't mention it, it's his personal thing and we should not care. Unlike today's artists whom seem to like showing all. I mean we even had Lady Gaga wearing actual meat on stage - talk about lack of dignity - no wonder 60% of Americans are divorced when that is considered by women to be gossip-worthy. Is that what pushing the limits is to you feminists? I guess now we know why dating a disabled man like me was out of the question - that's one limit you ladies will not push, ever. Similarly as I stated above I also wanted to help a woman out of an abusive relationship - and that is what all suckers for love, another phrase in the song, are after. And yet today's modern feminism is even making fun of men for this aspect and abusing us with it calling it the Superhero Complex and stating that men have an inner need to rescue women in distress and thus the women play men and their superhero-like desires. When in fact, women are strong and do not need rescuing and in fact are putting men into jeopardy for the kicks sake. In fact there are many feminist soldiers as part of some fancy Transnational Feminist Network whom purposely cheat on men and purposely pit male friend against male friend by cheating on one with the other just to gossip about what woman got what man to kill the other or to cause fights and gloat how powerful of a feminist queen they truly can be. 2Pac states this flat out with the line "Your attitude was the cause, you got me stressin'". He is describing that he did not just behave properly but also knew it to be proper from many other unrelated interactions. And he is also acknowledging that in his life his stress source was mostly that woman. Even revealing further of his personal life, which is rare in this instance, is that he says that as soon as he opened the door her jealousy, often a sign of manipulative personality disorder, sociopathy, and paranoia. The next line is killer for it actually says she was putting so much pressure on him that "you're killing me." is right there in the song. Case in point, after I was with that womamn from California I actually died literally. I went for a visit to California and my heart stopped on some random corner, requiring CPR, and leaving a yellow stain on my left breast for two weeks aftering spending a few days at the San Francisco General Hospital. 2Pac is not from Europe and I am not from Africa. And yet we seem to have had the same identical experience, and he is not disabled and I am. Furthermore he is a superstar and I am not. We are as different as the parts of ying yang so how could we have had the same exact abusive experience? Am I 2Pac? Shhh... I have written over 3,000 songs, so maybe, but the only difference is, mine are bad. And yet the next phrase of 2Pac says it best "Now my ambition is to be free", and coincidentally ever since I was with her so is mine. Before meeting her I felt free and now I haven't a day since. In fact, this is described in some feminist forums as precisely being the point of terror - to make you afraid of life itself, of love itself, of... "Love is a battlefield" ladies, is that the line? Women do not understand lyrics. It does not mean use love as a weapon because love is never a weapon. If it were the baseline of Do For Love would not be beautiful, would it? And love is only that which is beautiful and by that it never is a cosmetically altered long haired painted on and glossified glitzed swaggy swag bling bling kinda ride. And neither is this baseline, is it?
The worst part is that 2Pac goes even further to let us know the feeling of what the woman did to him. By constantly arguing with him, pushign his buttons, testing if he is a man and not a little boy, by forcing him to defend himself, asking questions of jealousy and paranoia and demanding explanations for his every move, and so forth, 2Pac even says it himself "I can't breathe" is the feeling when he thinks of leaving or doing something that she doesn't approve of. This is called anxiety, it is called induced anxiety. Did he sing in the song that he suffered from anxiety before meeting her? Did he sing "I was riddled with PTSD until I met you and with my crew you never told me what to do all we ever done babe was make love me and you"? That rhymes and all but no rap artist sang that, yet. I mean many did, but it is not completely true, is it bros? Sorry if the words aren't ideal but I am watching TV and listening to 2Pac. The saddest part is 2Pac even grasps it but can't tell us in plaintext. He says "it's like a trap". And it is a trap, he understands what the woman is. She is a trap. The woman's love is a trap. A fly and a spider? You know that line? She suffers from a mental condition part of it is paranoia. People with this illness are very intelligent. They read tons, study psychology, and interact with others from the perspective of pretending to be others, to not be discovered as sick, to not be taken advantage of. They are perpetually afraid. And will even kill in order to not be found out for being mentally sick is the biggest shame in American and even my Canadian society. People bully each other with the term "crazy" and "insane" and "lunatic" all the time and all those labelled as such are ostricized. They are excluded. The crazy ones is whom Steve Jobs loved, not whom Disney made movies about. Crazy people are not princesses that any knight would fight dragons for. Lunatics are sent to the moon to live all alone and to die and perhaps that is why the lunatic word is similar to the first word of "lunar eclipse"? Those who are out there, you know, not of Earth? The Martians? The crazy people. The woman 2Pac fell in love with is a psycho, and I happened upon the same type of mentally ill person, too. And while it may or may not be her fault, it is also the fault of the social circle and society around the person for not helping properly and for even ridiculing the individuals. This is why to these people love is a trap. They need to be accepted and love is the greatest acceptance. Sex is even greater. A plethora of sex is not just acceptance, its heaven. And the only people who have it worse than the nuts whom 2Pac sang about, are us disabled people. I was born blind and every day of my life suffered low vision and always will. That means that 90% of life is off limits to me - such as driving cars. Imagine if you could never drive how much of North American life style would be off limits? However, unlike women with paranoia or men with it I am not sick and so I do not pursue anyone for love nor do I have a love trap like 2Pac sang of. I have never even had a single date because not only do I have low vision but I also have "weird demon-like eyes" (woman's own words). While I look in the mirror I see nothing weird, females, seemingly most whom suffer from paranoia of some sort, seem to judge us men mostly by our eyes. And I was judged worthless every year of mmy life so far anyway. Why else has no woman ever approached me and asked "What's your name"? Because those with paranoia need a secret system for knowing the truth that others do not communicate with words, you know how a woman says "I can just tell if he's cheated on me, it's my inner intuition". Yeah, can you find a bomb with that intuition? I bet not. But if you are thusly paraonoid and base it on interpreting eye movements and facial gestures, than you would never be able to feel at ease with someone like me whose eyes you can never ever stare deep into. This is the simplest explanation. And while my personal life has nothing to do with this song, it also is not personal for my eyes every person in Toront has looked into for three decades now so it is not really secret. I wear sunglasses many times but unlike the rest of you whom wear them to look cool, I wear them to not be judged. The key line is the end before the woman says her part and the woman's part is much shorter for a reason. It is after all 2Pac's song. For unlike women, men rarely gossip about their personal lives. Women use gossip as means of control. Men thus talk about sports, and work, and other things, that do not end up looking like control or a leash of a dog. If I wanted my friends to judge my girlfriend everywhere she went I would tell them when she argues with me she wears red shoes. And they would hassle her whenever she is wearing red. This is what women do when they gossip as well. They look for signs and then spread them to all their girlfriends. Thus inticing whippings socially. 2Pac's last line here is that he hears her calling back to come back. In other words, she yells at him, he walks away as to not argue, as to not be angry, not to be violent, not to go drinking, and then when he is away she calls him and possibly apologizes, making nice, wanting him back. And so they go back and forth back and forth. And that is a tug o war thing. Now if many women behave this way, then all will say "it's normal, everyone's relationship is like this hon". But it is not. Do you treat your kids this way? I bet not. Do you yell at them constantly and apologize and do it again and again? Do you drink and then apologize and do it again and again? So why would you treat your husband or wife that way? Because this is the leash. If love is a trap you need to create a leash to keep people in the trap don't you? If I demand to beat you before every meal otherwise you go hungry you will either eat and get beat or you will eat elsewhere. But if I convince through gossip all the other food vendors to beat and feed then all the relationships will be this way and the beatings will seem normal, like 2Pac sings about beatings in the song later on.
Now the female phrases consist of much less and they sound way nicer than 2Pac's scruffy male vocals. The female lines even turn me on when I am lonely. And believe me this is my 13,003rd Friday Night that I am spending all alone and at the age of forty, I have cried more than a WWII survivor. Every day I go and spend ten hours in the city of Toronto and then when no woman even says hello I come home, cry, and sleep alone. But these lines I finally understand. Here is what the woman says. See if you can recognize it before I explain. "What you won't do, do for love. You tried everything, but you don't give up."
The woman is plain and simply gloating of her power over her new victim. She is saying how many before him she got away with and how many more she will line up. She is explaining how worthless he is to her. And how worthless all men are to all women like her. These women have terrible sociopathy and don't really care. Let me explain. The first phrase, "What you won't do for love" means that 2Pac will do anything imaginable. Anything. Yes, anything. Including that which nobody should ever do. It means she has him wrapped around her little finger, her little pinky, and at the snap of her heels she can get him to go shoot up a neighbourhood, she can get him to fight a stranger, she can get him to lock up an innocent man, for her love, he is willing to do anything at all, for her body he will beg, for her he will die, for her and only for her and not for any other woman he will serve in the army and have his limbs cut off and return as a quadrapalegic and still forgive her if out of boredom she cheated on him. For her he would destroy a planet or an entire race of life. Like when a mother says to a kid "You didn't want to do your chores but look what you won't do, do for ice cream". That's where the line came from. It means I own you. And that's not love. The next line is even more honest. "You tried everything, but you don't give up". THe key here is the word "don't". 2Pac chose it specifically as there are many words he could have used as well as expressions. "You won't give up" perhaps? But you don't give up means she tried to push him to a point of failure. She pushed him harder than other men, she tried to make him give up time and time again. And he chose to not give up, he chose to do anything she threw at him. No matter how undignified, no matter how saddistic, no matter how... illegal. He did it all. It means that he tried everything, everything she wanted him to try, and it means he loves her but she doesn't give a damn. The reason I believe this to be true is because she sings "You tried everything" meaning "you tried everything to make me love you as respectfully as I love you to make me trust you as you trust me and it's still not it you still don't have from me my true love and you still are not giving up." Because her love, no man can ever have. And 2Pac is not communicating that in these lyrics, not directly anyway. Maybe he is not aware of it, maybe he is, maybe he chose these two lines for that reason. I am not sure. But the point is she is the one singing "you tried everything" and that is maybe 2Pac admiting he was made a fool of. It is his acknowledgement that someone whom he trusted more than his mama took serious advantage of him and he tried and possibly succeeded in returning to sanity by writing this song. His laugh on the track is genuine and honest and child-like. And that probably shows his deep compassion and love for not only himself and that woman but life itself.
I think the rest is now easier to interpret. Perhaps I will write a part 2 at some point. But the V movie is over and oddly enough after eating a simple vanilla Ice Cream from the grocery store my head hurts. So good night kiddos.
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